From the outside

My arms wrap tighter around you as I feel your breath growing louder. I inhale sharply to draw your mind to my breathing and slowly exhale. Again. Again. I try not to imagine the racing thoughts in your head or the panic in your body. From the outside, you appear to be suffocating. It Is […]
Ocean

Imagine laying on a raft in the middle of the ocean at midnight. Floating with a sky full of stars as if on a cloud. But only for a few peaceful minutes where you don’t need to worry about surviving.
Tornado

Maybe I’m afraid to stop. I am a tornado, always moving, turning and destroying. But what do tornadoes do if they calm down and stop? Disappear. What have I turned into? Maybe something better. I like the wind, the movement, the change. Being a tornado doesn’t take you very far. You stay in the same […]
Race

Life doesn’t feel like a race until you start falling behind. When you are ahead and unstoppable you don’t notice the road signs. But then those lethal devices start creeping in. You start to get anxious about the little things, worry about your choices, get scared that you are wasting valuable time. So you hesitate. […]
Push Pin

When you want to remember something you can write it down on a piece of paper and then use a push pin to stick it somewhere. My mind is a cork board. I claim to have terrible memory but somethings stick as if purposely placed and secured with a push pin. I haven’t figured out […]
Wall Clock

Do you know what it is like to have someone’s eyes constantly on you? Every urgent glance or longing stare puts more pressure on me to be precise, there is no room for mistakes. It seems I am always too early or too late.

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From the outside

My arms wrap tighter around you as I feel your breath growing louder. I inhale sharply to draw your mind to my breathing and slowly exhale. Again. Again. I try not to imagine the racing thoughts in your head or the panic in your body. From the outside, you appear to be suffocating. It Is easier to breath when you are not doing it alone. As panic disappears from your eyes, I feel the anxious energy fade a way.

I used to feel helpless in moments like these. Desperately looking for an easy out, a band-aid. It’s hard to fix something when you don’t know where it’s broken.